I'm struggling...

As I write this, I don't have a title for this post. I'm struggling. I'm struggling with my own body image. My stomach has been bloated and pained. I'm stressed out and desperately trying to get comfortable with a new routine. I've also gained a couple pounds according to the scale and, in my mind, my clothes. Nothing fits me the way I want it to fit. I can spend a good hour before I have to leave for work trying on outfits and pulling them off, throwing them on the bed because I am too frustrated to put them away. I haven't worked in an office job in 6 months and want to make a good impression with my wardrobe choices, but feel I look disgusting in all of my clothes. I'm trying to eat healthier, which is proving to be extremely difficult. I come home completely exhausted from work and trying to adjust to working life. I have less than zero motivation to exercise. I hate what I see when I look in the mirror. I critique every single little thing about myself lately. I am very unhappy with my body but have little motivation to change it. I've tried eating less but that just has the opposite effect. Maybe I just need to wait until my body has adjusted to the new stresses and schedule of my every day life. I hope it gets back on track again. I don't want to end up depressed and not eating again like I did when I lost my job. I was at my lowest weight then but it wasn't a healthy weight. Body image is a bitch, I just hope I can find my confidence and strength again to not worry about it too much.